Connection

One of the miracles of working with RBD (Remarkable Body Development) is that, through coaching, I am learning to stretch out of my comfort zone and create lots of things in my life that I didn't even know I was lacking. One of those things is connection. I have hidden, in one way or another, from people in my life and, as a result, don't often make real, solid relationships. Connecting is really scary for me. I've never really had it (even with family) and, at 42 years old, have decided that I don't want to live my life without it anymore.

Yesterday, I had a conversation with a colleague and put myself out there and asked him if the next time he went hiking would he give me a call. I needed a hiking buddy. I had realized that I was choosing to not do something I wanted to do (Hiking) because I made up the story that no one would want to spend time with me. I know it sounds silly but it was a difficult thing, really, and because it was difficult, I felt stupid & foolish. But it was because I felt stupid & foolish at just the thought of asking for a hiking buddy that I knew I had to do it anyway, regardless of the outcome. And the outcome is that, once our schedules mesh, we will go out hiking.

yay me